fu...ture?

I dont know what should i write today...
I need to write but sometimes i'm just not inspired, but i need.. i want you to feel like i feel... to know what is on my mind. And by now(i've seen that most of my readers are foreingers) i'm gonna write in english, so you can understand me.

Ok... so... what about your futures?
This is one of the most normal thoughts on my mind.... where will i be, who will i be.. with WHO will i be... 
I think every teenager in the world have this questions, some of them would have solved them now, but a lot of us are confused. And by now, i can say that im so SO confused...
When i was little i was always thinking of my future, i wanted to be a dancer, but then i grew up and decided to be a designer; even now, a part of me want to study desing.
But, will i have a good future if i become a designer? Yeah, i know, i'm always saying that this is what i wanna do, and everyone says that im good at it (you can give your opinion, there are pictures of my desings on some entrees). But even if i know that... will i be good enough? will i reach my dreams?


But like normal and tipical teen, i also have other dreams, like being a profesional skater or singer, wouldnt it be  fantastic?
So this year is to difficult for me. I know a girl who is studing at USA, and she's little than me, but when i read her blog, i feel like she's having a perfect present to get to a "even more perfect" future.

So i have a lot of doubts and bad thoughts about this....